New Year New-Ness

Lack of customer service agents. A missed plane. A crying baby on a full flight. An arguing couple beginning to yell. A laptop battery near death and two potential new job offers. Acceptance letters to law school? A move eastward (because how much farther west can one go?). Three months to travel the world and feel my independence (or lack of?). Some time to make it a better place too, maybe. Welcome to 2006. A lot will change, and an unexpected amount will probably stay the same. No matter what though, it will involve some growth, in career and in personal life. It may involve heartache, it may involve new loves (or a reigniting of the current). It will certainly involve bad movies and good books. So here we go.

I don’t know what to expect anymore, but change and uncertainty. And quite frankly, it’s exciting. Except for the settling down part. I feel like as I get older, more questions emerge from my brain that cannot be answered. More decisions have to be made, and can only be made by me. And I don’t really believe my gut has the instinct strong enough to make them with conviction.

I’m heading home again and I am wondering if my car’s ok, if my plants and fish are still alive, and if I can take three more months, and really try hard to make them special. This year: my goal: take charge and ask for what I want. And take one significant risk. Maybe a skydive, maybe a trip to Kanya Kumari all by myself: whatever it is, I will make my soul proud of myself this year.